Bipolar Health

Ich denke, bipolar zu sein führt dazu, mehr Unsicherheit im eigenen Leben aushalten zu müssen.

Wenn ich (Hypo-)manisch bin oder auch in Remission (also weder depressiv noch manisch, aber eben doch nicht so stimmungsstabil wie andere), treffe ich extremere Entscheidungen. Ich suche öfters Abenteuer, Herausforderung und Abwechslung. Am Ende stehe ich mit der Unsicherheit da, ob der eingeschlagene wirklich weiter geht oder tot endet.

In den letzten Monaten habe ich mehrere Entscheidungen getroffen, die mein Leben stark verändern. Es ist sind die Lebensthemen: Job gekündigt, Trennung mit der Freundin, auf Reise gehen (zu sich selbst). Zusätzlich stellte ich auch noch weiteres wie meinen Wohnort in Frage.

Da vieles in kurzer Zeit weg gebrochen war, fand ich keinen sicheren Stand. Kontinuierlich arbeite und hinterfragte mein Geist mein bisheriges Leben. Zarte Pläne wurden alsbald über den Haufen geworfen.

Was hilft mir aus dem Gedankenkarusell herauszukommen:
1. Detaillierte Pläne geben Sicherheit: Meine Freunde mit denen ich zuletzt in Norwegen gereist, bereiten sich auf die Route vor. Sie wissen, was sie sehen wollen und wo sie bleiben wollen. Das gibt Stabilität.
2. Routinen zum Gedankenstopp: Zum 1. mal mache ich langes Yoga (1h) und schlafe danach beseelt ein. Ich kenne diese Erholsamen theta Zustand vom Neurofeedback.
3. Festlegen, Entscheidungen für einen gewissen Zeitraum nicht mehr zu hinterfragen, sondern einen Weg mit dieser zu finden: Ich bleibe jetzt für 2 Jahre in München.

Believe in something and it might help.

Preparing for a bike tour through the alpes.
Don’t do it for the reward, but still enjoy it :)

It’s summer time and no lockdown. It should be fun time.

I am on a sabbatical at the Moment. So there is nothing to stress and worry about?

After completing some private projects and kept me busy in the past weeks, I was expecting the easy life to come. But our mind works differently.

If there is not much to do for your mind on a superficial level (like organization, to do list, etc), it can bring up deeper, unconscious topics. It will always find something to dwell on…. How nasty, but that’s why I started this whole journey.

I want to overcome some deeper, inner discontent, restlessness and emptiness.

Who can relate to this?

Flying is the dream of humanity. I think, it has a special attraction to bipolar people.

It feels like the rush of a hypomanic mood on one hand. On the other hand, it supports a slightly feeling of superiority. Up in the sky, my mind became still at a certain point and filled with aww for that planet and its beings living miraculously together.

When I want to fly in live, I should keep a checklist for safety reasons. Is weather staying ok? Does my engine work ans do I have enough fuel for the destination. A small mistake can be fatal.

Thank you, for this experience!

Everyone is doing Wim Hof now. I started end of last year consistently exercising the breathing and having cold showers or ice baths.

In his book the Wim hof method, he mentions several times specifically the positive effects on bipolar patients who he trained in his seminars. He speaks literally about healing it.

So sure, I am all in. After about two months, I can definitely confirm an increase of life energy, of mental clarity and balance. The cold is an extreme for of mindfulness. It forces me to be in the moment. There is no other way.

Bipolar friends of mine also Resort of benefitial impact, especially when you suffer from deressivr symptoms. It is energizing! Be careful if you are hypomanic. Potentially, you overdo it and it shots your mood too high.

I am thinking about purpose continuously. What gives my life really meaning? If my life has a book title, which one would it be?

One of my latest statements was systematic healing by change of consciousness in balance, growth, connection and adventure.

This feels right for me. But it is still unspecific. In the end, I want to go somewhere, no one has been so far. Break walls and bend the universe!

So I want to be bold: HEAL BIPOLAR DISORDER. And I mean in it a simple, accessible way for everyone. When I read these lines I feel I want to dedicate my life to this purpose. I am 29 years old now. I have still 60 to go at least. Stay tuned 😉

A weekend in the woods...

Victory for cooperation!

Whoever will win, not even GAP can’t close the gap.

When you are master in something, become a student in something new! 🚵‍♀️

I just started mountain biking. Learning a new hobby or anything new facilitates to be present and focused. At the same time, you make some fast progress and gain confidence. This often helped me in the past to improve my mental health. It also makes me a broader personality that can get along in most life situations.

I absolutely love it! ❤️

@ Burg Hohenurach

Tennis is my hobby since my early childhood. As a teenager, I was quite good at competitions with my team. I loved playing and winning together.

With the onset of the bipolar disorder, I deteriorated massively. In the past, I had been mentally extremely fit and was playing even better in tight matches.

Now, I don‘t feel this positive excitement but anxiety and unwell. Of course, Tennis became a trigger for me as I have experienced repeatingly failures in game. Still, I am remain insecure after victories, in general very sensitive.

Last weekend, I played with my old team again after one year. To be honest, I lost single and double... but I felt much better than before. I was playing my level of tennis and I had some fun after the initial fear. I found a way to get out of my anxious mind by using methods which I learned in neurofeedback.

So in the end, it was a great party with my team - even though we lost.