Nebul-adrift

So apparently I was given a bonus for the holiday and then this next paycheck I'm sure exactly what was included in the bonus. You know not accounting for the money I had to give to my boss as a thank you for some reason. Wtf

Boss apparently is giving us a ₩100,000 bonus for Chueosk but we have to send ₩20,000 as a thank you gift.

Side eye but sure, whatever. I'll wait for when I see it posted.

So apparently according to my Korean co teacher, Boss doesn't like that I take food home. And that I also made mistakes when correcting the kids books before sending them home.

But she likes my energy when interacting with kids. And those kids really like me. Hence all the videos she's been recording of me.

First of all we pay for lunch out of our paycheck. So I'm taking leftovers home because I know they throw it away.

Second like I've said before it's really easy to make mistakes when I have very little time to get things done between teaching. I also know she is under a lot of pressure from the big boss.

Third I totally have stage fright so of course I'm gonna make mistakes especially when my flow gets thrown off. I'm partially unmedicated after all.

Regardless I let her know that I know my limitations, but that won't stop me from doing my best to accomplish hard things.

Around 7 months left.

My coworker almost fainted from pain at work yesterday. My boss drove her to the doctor and still told her to be back by the time the meeting started. She was on the floor from pain waiting for the medication to kick in. I told her to message the boss exactly that. She let her skip the meeting.

My boss also decided to micromanage my classroom today.and changed what she said she wanted from my weekly lesson plan. Then, while I was asking for clarification, she hung up on me.

My hip is hurting a lot. It's hard to sleep,and the kids managed to pull a wooden beam off the wall.

I told my boss about it after it happened yesterday. Today she reprimanded me for not telling her.

Nine months left. I survived four years in the Navy and 10 months deployed. I can do this. I know my boss is stressed because her boss is hounding her, but man, Korean culture is very similar, and not in a good way, unfortunately.

I'm not looking forward to returning to America, but damn it, nothing about this timeline is easy.

I've started va**ng again. 🫠

We had a meeting at work today like we do every Wednesday, but as I keep repeating, I cannot think for the students and I cannot think for the staff, especially if they won't implement it. Nine months left; over and out.

Boss tried to get me to do work at home off the clock. I would have done it during my second break, but she needed to have a "meeting" on not losing another student. I would have recorded, but I was running on broken sleep (a whole 4 hours last night) and pain, fueled by sheer will and my comfort drink of four Monster Ultras.🙃

I've already done everything asked of me to the best of my ability. I can't check or explain homework that isn't turned in.🫠

I just pulled a tried-and-true military tactic: smile and nod. And vent to my co-teachers after work since it's now happening to them too. The boss didn't like that one of them was taking their breaks, so they deleted an already completed file to try and pretend they hadn't done it. 👀

But anyway, I'm going back to sleep. It's currently 1 a.m. Over and out.🫡

El Nino is STILL building. Work is now starting to nitpick and antagonize my other black coworkers and ill be surprised if the hagwon last another year. Especially since we've lost 10 kids since March.

Im actually in a lot of pain lately. It hurts to go up stairs. Can't wait to see how long I last.

So Iran has labeled the United States Military at terrorist complete with bounty's, And over South Korea's Liberation weekend, America decides to cancel military exercises and partner with *check notes* North Korea.

I use to joke the the US military was the largest government saction mafia in the world.

Don't even get me started on climate issues.

I'm just gonna drink my tea. And walk to work. I made breakfast but I feel so nauseous from the disappointment I feel.

The 'baby's first racism' has finally become less... innocent.

Was called a gorilla today at work by one of the kids.

Like you think you can hurt me? Not only am I from Detroit, but I was in the fu***ng U. S. Navy.

I didn't yell tho just calmly called them out. Took two tries but my ex military demeanor finally got the other kids to ice the 'joke' out.

Even when the co teachers stuck up for me when I reported it in the Teachers meeting today it was totally brushed off.

Anyways earlier that day I was randomly shot with a make believe gun by another student, during recess. I asked my student who he was to think he could shoot me, thinking he would say a police officer... or something along those lines...
. he said he was a pig....I guess that checks out too.

Anyways the jokes write themselves, I guess.🤷🏽

We were moved from a classroom that was 33°c to a whopping 28°c And my phone is constantly going off with warnings about the Heatwave here in Korea.

Definitely not renewing my contract here.
And apparently Thailand is even hotter. 😬