Intentional Holistic Healing

Can you Disagree with & Displease Others if it means not Abandoning yourself?

Are you willing to stand By Yourself For Yourself, even when it means standing alone, losing friends, losing financials, Losing Old Parts of Yourself that are Comfortable?

Can you Do It Sober, Unmedicated & from a place of Authenticity, Conviction, & Love VS a place of numbing/Avoidance/Lack of education around subject or Hate?

We are living in a world that is playing on your emotions, Preying on your Pain, & Using your good Heart Against You.

I Deeply Understand Not wanting people to Suffer. Trying to save others and seeing their potential are two of my greatest assets and also have been my Biggest downfalls.

Coming to terms with the Grief, s❌trauma, Loss, & Betrayal in my life was sickening. And getting Honest about those things Required me to look at All the Other ways we are being deceived by society.

What does it mean to be kind, authentic, & loving? Does that mean letting people suffer in their own Delusions as long as those delusions "don't hurt us?" But where is the Line around Who is being Harmed when people won't look at the evidence available?

It is Dangerous to continue avoiding the REALITY of the way the Truth has been Demonized in our country. It is Harmful to children & survivors Everywhere to keep avoiding the Obvious victimizations that are happening Right under our noses under the guise of kindness & healthcare.

I don't sugar coat 💩 here or elsewhere. I am Exactly who I say I am, in person, on these apps, in relationship, & in business. This is an issue very near to my heart because of my experience with loss/suicide/grief/s❌trauma + the Deciet of big pHARMa & the Willingness to Truly look at and Investigate the dark things most others avoid. I also love someone who has fallen prey to the cult mentality and watched the devastating impacts on family.

I've created a private sanctuary for Women who want to connect & Learn about doing the work of Cycle Breaking, Truth Telling, Advocacy for their Values & Convictions. I will be sharing astrology insights, offering journal prompts/meditations, herbal insights, & Raw Unfiltered Truth.

If you have been a woman afraid to speak on these specific issues (the Reality that Men Can Never Be Women & to Pander to these Lies is Dangerous) this is Especially for YOU.

As a survivor, as a child advocate, as a bisexual woman, as a shadow worker overcoming witch wounds, I have Yet to find anyone in the spiritual community Not submitting to this Insideous ideology (& that goes for the Rewilding group as well-Not in the Least practicing what they Preach, which is why I Left).

If you've felt politically ousted, if you've been abandoned for standing in your Values, if you've been Brave Enough to start questioning the BS we've been being fed these past 6yrs, I will be exploring All of these areas and sharing intimately about how this work required me to shed All of my previous identities so I could Stop Abandoning Myself.

If you are curious about or working on learning how to DISplease others, stay tuned! 😘
Stephanie

Medusa is Conjunct my Sun & Kali is Conjunct my North Node, so... That should give you a pretty good indication of the Energy I carry ⚔️
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Medusa was not born monstrous.

In the oldest Greek tradition, she was one of the three Gorgon sisters and the only one who could die. Later, in Ovid’s Metamorphoses, her story changed. She became a beautiful young woman whose life was shattered inside Athena’s temple after Poseidon violated her there.

Yet Medusa carried the transformation.

Her hair became serpents. Her face became feared. Her gaze became fatal.

The story is often told as though beauty turned into horror. As though the danger began with her.

It did not.

The violence came first.

Her gaze does not pursue innocent people. It becomes lethal when others approach her. What mythology calls a curse can also be read as the final boundary of someone who was never protected when she was vulnerable.

No one could touch her again without consequence.

Even after she was silenced, something powerful was born from her.

That is why Medusa continues to matter.

She represents the woman whose suffering was used as evidence against her. The survivor whose changed nature made others uncomfortable. The person called cold, angry, difficult, or dangerous after learning that softness alone could not keep her safe.

Her snakes carry the ancient language of shedding, renewal, instinct, and survival.

Her stone gaze is the moment truth becomes impossible to avoid.

Medusa asks you to consider:

Who decided your survival made you monstrous?

What did you have to become when no one came to protect you?

How often was your reaction judged more harshly than the harm that caused it?

Medusa was not born monstrous.

In the oldest Greek tradition, she was one of the three Gorgon sisters and the only one who could die. Later, in Ovid’s Metamorphoses, her story changed. She became a beautiful young woman whose life was shattered inside Athena’s temple after Poseidon violated her there.

Yet Medusa carried the transformation.

Her hair became serpents. Her face became feared. Her gaze became fatal.

The story is often told as though beauty turned into horror. As though the danger began with her.

It did not.

The violence came first.

Her gaze does not pursue innocent people. It becomes lethal when others approach her. What mythology calls a curse can also be read as the final boundary of someone who was never protected when she was vulnerable.

No one could touch her again without consequence.

Even Perseus could not look directly at her. He needed distance, strategy, and a mirrored shield. He could only defeat her through reflection because confronting her face-to-face was impossible.

Then, from the wound of her death, Pegasus and Chrysaor emerged.

Even after she was silenced, something powerful was born from her.

That is why Medusa continues to matter.

She represents the woman whose suffering was used as evidence against her. The survivor whose changed nature made others uncomfortable. The person called cold, angry, difficult, or dangerous after learning that softness alone could not keep her safe.

Her snakes carry the ancient language of shedding, renewal, instinct, and survival.

Her stone gaze is the moment truth becomes impossible to avoid.

Medusa asks you to consider:

Who decided your survival made you monstrous?

What did you have to become when no one came to protect you?

How often was your reaction judged more harshly than the harm that caused it?

She is not frightening because she became cruel.

She is frightening because she became untouchable. Perhaps the true horror was never the woman with snakes in her hair.

It was the world that hurt her, blamed her, and still expected her to remain gentle.

DIVINE FEMININE IN BARBAULT'S BASKET 🧺🌌⛓️‍💥

In the past few days I've been throwing Everything into these Substack articles centered around Barbaults Basket, but through the lens of the Divine Feminine in the astrology chart.

If you're new here, I investigate themes around: •Inherited Ancestral trauma
•Feminine Repression/Expression
•Epigenetics/Embodied Karmic Imprints
•Karmic Lessons for Breaking
•Guilt/Shame/Grief/Loss/Suicide/🍇
•Trauma Responses (fawning/people pleasing)
•Alchemy, Self Advocacy, Re-MEM-bering SELF

There are So Many things I look at in the charts, through the lens of goddess mythology & archetypes. In my 5yrs of diving Deep in exploration around how these myths represent in our lives, our bodies, our lessons, I've Never once been told I'm wrong about someone's life experience.

I was once on a path to become a forensic anthropologist & criminal profiler - so I See the patterns & connect dots on human behavior where others don't. Instead of being a voice for the dead and reading predators behavior, I'm now helping women find their Own voice and doing it through their unique soul blueprint. So Much of what I do it help women connect the dots on where they've been Deceived, where they've self Abandon, Why, and how to come back to Self.

As someone who has extensive experiences with s❌trauma/Loss, I Speak from my Lived perspective & do it from an ethical standpoint.

Because betrayal is such a significant part of my own story, because Psychic capacity is Incredibly Strong, I can quickly pinpoint Insideous behaviors disguised as 'kindness' and this is running rampen in our world because people do not Know themselves, they do Not trust themselves, and they're Scared to Speak up in Conviction. I'm Not. I do Not and will Not pander to PC culture or the harmful ideologies circulating in the collective psyche.

I'm here to help Women move forward & the only way that is possible is for us to have Truthful conversations about our own responsibilities, be Accountable for our Own Soul work, and share authentically to Help your sisters Know they're not alone.

In a few days, I will be opening opportunities to have these deeply transformative conversations in a private telegram channel. *I'm waiting until Mercury Retrograde is Over bcz it's been Such a Bitch to work out All the tech. 😅

I Highly Encourage Reading ALL of these on Substack - they're lengthy but Well Worth your time to better understand the energies at play right now & for the coming future.

Learning about the asteroids has helped Me find my Voice, give myself Compassion, & Release self-harming behaviors and narratives that used to imprison me; and that's what I Hope to help you with!

Do you have a specific Goddess you feel called to? Do you know where she is in your chart? Leave me a comment so the algorithm will pick up my work And I can help You connect to these Potent energies!! 😘

*Link for Substack articles in Comments! Please go Subscribe there!!

Do Not Skip This! 😘

Pluto Square Karma

Jupiter Square Karma

Black Moon Lilith

Ceres

Grief

Cloelia

Medusa

Kassandra

Inner Child

Persephone

Karmic Emergence from Ancestral Grief The Divine Feminine in Barbault's Basket: Pluto Square Karma, Black Moon Lilith, Ceres, Cloelia & Persephone

My latest Substack article explores the conjunctions between Juno, Pluto, & Hylonome in Aquarius Trining Sedna, Uranus, & Kali in Gemini.

We're reviewing Soul contracts, specifically marriage contracts, in relation to mother wounding, shame, & losing ourselves to another.

And many of us have decided to stop playing this ancient game of submitting to a masculine that cannot be trusted to lead.

While Juno is the goddess of marriage, she was Deeply Unhappy in her union that was instigated out of violation & shame, Not choice.

How many relationships have you been tied up in that actually stem from mother wounds? You're seeing that now-the blindfolds are being cut away, the Shadows are coming out to play, and the Grief of Self Abandonment is Enormous.

These energies are part of the more popular topic this WKnd, Barbault Basket, where Pluto, Uranus, Jupiter, and Neptune are All Communicating to support an up leveling of consciousness like humanity has Never witnessed.

I will be following up this article with more insight on the Jupiter/ISIS Conjunction, as well as Black Moon Lilith+ Grief AND the Moon/Pele conjunction.

Anyone else feeling these energies at play?

A Sacred Severance-Dissolving Soul Contracts Built on Ancestral Wounds The Divine Feminine in Barbault's Basket: Pluto/Juno + Uranus/Sedna/Kali

What if women just Stopped?

What if we just stopped participating, stopped serving, stopped pleading, stopped Waiting to be valued in relationships we're not even considered in?

What if we stopped abandoning our own needs to prioritize men?

The world as we know it would Stop.

Pluto & Juno are dancing with Hylonome, trining Sedna/Uranus/Kali making it Impossible to ignore the dismantling of relationships built on our wounded programming.

And we can cling - but Kali's sword & the Repeated cuts from the masculine will ensure we're forced into the depths where we get to choose to ascend to the Light, or remain frozen in silence.

This lastest Substack will be followed up with Jupiter/Isis energy, Grief/Black Moon Lilith, & Moon/Pluto reflections-All Signatures in the cosmic pattern astrologers can't stop talking about, Barbaults Basket.

Link for Substack article in comments!

❤️‍🔥SACRED SELF INTEGRITY, DEVOTION, PROTECTION

I just turned 44 and I feel Lifetimes away from who I used to be. However, there are lingering feelings of guilt that I continue to work through for the things I Simply will Not Tolerate in my life anymore.

My Wish for Myself on my 44th birthday last wk is to become "Jason Bateman Level Unbothered" this year. 🤣🎂🕯️There is something about every character he plays that just feels So Cool, Calm, Collected-& I want more of that, because I'm a little Hot Head. 🤬

The transits are working TF out of my chart, Dragging out All the Skeletons, Immersing me in ALL the Shadows and Asking me "Which Version of You is Choosing the Path Forward?"

My emotional regulation lately has been Top FKN Tier. My Go-To has been Pulling Back My Energy & Redirecting it to Fuel MySelf. This looks like Completely Disengaging from situations/conversations/relationships that Ignite me/Drain Me. The Discernment where people are trying to Hook into me is Immediately Sensed and I'm Shielding myself at All costs. Others have been Stunned at my recent lack of engagement which Truly tells me how many people have benefitted from me going Above and Beyond for Their comfort level over my Own.

As a Very Sensitive Cancer Sun, I've lived my Life in my feelings, allowing myself to get swept away in emotions, taking things personally, stuffing down the rage while simultaneously self harming & destructing from the inside VS holding people accountable for what they did to me. Everything I could do to Keep the Peace for others over myself.

Those days are GONE. It is one thing to have Grace for others imperfections - it is Entirely another to continue making up stories in your head (about Others & Yourself) while avoiding the Reality of what they keep showing you. Most times, WE are our Own Damn Problem. So Many people are Bleeding out for others, feeling resentful, Desperate to be chosen, setting the bar in Hell so Anyone can Access them, and Run from themselves Every Chance they get. That's a YOU Problem. That's a Boundary Problem bcz you'd rather be Perceived as 'nice' while also Alleviating yourself of the difficult work necessary that Truly Proves to your Nervous System that you are Your Own Protectress. *These are the confronting conversations I have with myself on the daily which is Why I've been more proactive in my own safeguarding.*

A mantra I've held close to my heart lately is "you don't have to get Angry. You DO have to Hold a boundary here." And while it has been a wildly uncomfortable ride with Pluto sitting over my Moon, I Know that these current transits are Forcing us to claim Everything we Say we Want.

When you are feeling a Strong Pull towards certain emotions, behaviors, lessons I *Promise You* there IS a transit happening that can explain this, and the more you sit with your chart, the More you can Understand yourself, give Yourself Grace & Compassion, and LOCK THE F**K IN.

Vesta (& Saturn) are currently Transiting Aries Squaring the Sun/Mercury transit to Cancer. And these are sitting over Crucial asteroids related to shadow work, a fierce self devotion & protection, a Rebirth of Identity & Purpose.

Vesta is our Sacred, Repetitive Devotion to SELF. She is where we must plug up the holes that leak our energy, continually bringing that fire back within and circulating it for our Own Regeneration.

Vesta is opposing my natal Pluto, which dissolves ego & Demands that what no longer serves you be dismantled. In Libra, this is about the People Pleasing Ive done for EONS in relationship. My anger can make me want to Burn it all down, but I must learn to Disengage completely, Entirely eradicating my energy flow to Anything that doesn't serve IS the Best course of Action, & it's the Most Difficult because All my Cancer energy feels guilty Not giving warmth, Not caretaking, not nurturing, Not Over-explaining myself.

And that's where the Pluto sitting on my Moon becomes an Ally, because Aquarius DETACHES. Pluto is Completely Dismantling & deconstructing my Mothering tendencies in relationships. I'm barely explaining Anything anymore, I'm just like 👌. I'm letting people be who they are (Not who I want them to be) and I'm acting accordingly on my own Behalf.

Are you defending something real (this New Self that is trying to break free) OR defending a version of yourself that no longer fits? What/Who needs to be Burned away?

What commitments are becoming performative because people were grandfathered in under old contracts but this new You requires New Contracts (JUNO IS CONJUNCT PLUTO)? Who is willing to sign new rules with this NEW Version who has Taken her Power Back?

Vesta is transiting my Medea, my Karma, & my Lilith.

Medea is an inner knowing about where you're being transgressed and the ability to radically transform/regenerate from aching betrayal. She asks us to guard ourselves against unworthy causes. In my 12th H this is Deeply psychological/spiritual insights + ancestral magic, specifically Herbalism for transformation.*

These placements are indicative of the WITCH archetype who must master deep shadows & suppressed rage to avoid self destruction. Swallowing my rage will only lead to burnout inflammation so I Have to Channel it through boundaries & healthy choices. *Which is why so much of my redirection of energy has been going to lift weights in the gym and digging into my chart to help Others understand How these energies express in our lives!

Vesta (the Sacred Eternal Flame) transiting my 12th house in Aries is like a torch illuminating a dark cave, setting fire to Medea/Karma/Lilith and directly challenging my Cancer NN/Sun/Hope/Medusa.

What/WHO are you willing to SACRIFICE to Claim & Protect yourself?

Medea/Medusa engaged with their betrayers-LILITH would NOT Submit, and she's the Last degree in my chart and being stimulated by Medusa/Chiron (the wounded healer.)

AND Medusa is closing in on Chiron, in the very Last Degrees and Beginning degrees of my chart, Forging this New Identity AS PROTECTRESS who Understands her Worth that the New Moon 21° Cancer just Lit UP.

This transit is an Opportunity to Reclaim My Voice, my Energy, & Prove to my Inner Child she is Safe with me, she Deserves to Shine, and the path to Healing is through letting others think whatever they want.

*Don't forget, Mercury is Retrograding with the Sun, so the cosmos is using this to drag old psychological material out of our original wounds from the Womb. So Many of our relationships (Juno) have been built on Mother Wounds and the Dark Goddess are pulling these Shadows Up for Cleansing. Vesta has the ability to PURIFY, as does PLUTO.

Reclaiming myself means deading access to my energy. *& This is Reinforced by Vesta & Persephone being in my 11th H Aquarius energy - Pouring out the Wisdom, while remaining Sovereign to SELF!!!

It's been a difficult lesson coming to understand that my Rage only impacts My health, the greatest lesson I can offer anyone is my Absence, because once that Cancer Sun has Refused to funnel into something, it dies away. 🌞🦀♋🔥🫰

Where is this Vesta/Saturn Sun/Mercury hitting Your chart and how is that coming across for you?
Stephanie 😘