Sidney Gabower

Singing to breakup songs while with the loml seemed fitting 🤌🏼 best concert yet!! thank you 🩵✨💙

there have been times I’ve felt embarrassed about who I am. There’s been times I’ve strongly regretted things I’ve done to where they haunt me until I finally forgive my past self. I’ve lost my way, questioned my purpose, and struggled to find them all again.

But the one thing I have done in my life that has completely changed my perspective and shadowed all those versions of myself is motherhood.

the most important thing I’ve been able to contribute is growing my babies and bringing them into the world. It’s true that it changes you forever, in every best possible way.

I’m proud of this version of myself and I have them and God to thank for it.

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Almost halfway there with little man - my spazzy little mango 🥭🩵

I’ve been feeling great + back in the gym. Currently craving Fall but Texas won’t participate. Always wanting veggies, pickles, cheese + crackers, strawberry smoothies, any true southern meal and bean burritos 24/7. Living in sweats and Aritzia tees. Lots of chats at night with babes as he practices for football in there. Thankful every day 🩵

anatomy scan day! Finally got to see baby Rayder again 🩵

It’s so special to have C & Tom with me to experience these moments. He’s able to be a part of SO much he had to miss when I was pregnant with her. These are moments we don’t get back and I’m so thankful he’s home.

I haven’t had an ultrasound in a few months, and the joy from seeing your baby will never fade. It felt so good! I might actually be further along than we thought…another February bean?!

Most importantly- Everything on his anatomy scan came back completely normal. Perfect growth. Healthy bones and organs. And a perfect heart with perfect function.

I felt like I was holding my breath up until that point. God is so so good. I could say thank you a million times and it still not be enough.

I feel a lot more confident moving into the next half of pregnancy knowing our sweet boy is healthy. The truth is, I think there is always going to be fear from the trauma of what happened to Cleo, but no 2 children are the same. She was a 1:1000000 case with a 1:1000000 miracle cure. We are so beyond blessed to have this baby boy and all his health 🙏🏼 only good things from here.

I can’t wait to meet him 🥹🩵

Baby has me loving blue 🩵🦋💙

Met our midwife today to set up care and all things needed for our homebirth experience for baby Rayder! I truly feel like we landed in the perfect hands. It was like I already knew her well and I’m so comfortable working with someone that aligns with my views on pregnancy + birth. I could not be more excited for our journey and I’m beyond thankful we can make this a reality 🙏🏼

There’s so much to spill on why I chose to go the unmedicated homebirth route + honestly I am SO excited to share it all. I’ve wanted to share all the details of this pregnancy in the hopes it helps someone else as well 🤍 knowledge and relatability is powerful!

If you have any questions or want details drop questions below!

I’m currently 15wks + I’ll be seeing my midwife for monthly checkups during my second trimester. Baby boy is healthy and happy! I’m finally feeling better for the most part and easing back into “normal” day to day routines. Currently craving Naples seafood + fruit smoothies 🤤🍣🍓

Happiest big 30 to my ride or die 🧡

I love to do life with you, but I love your outlook on life even more. It’s changed my own and I’m thankful to have you as our leader. I’ve never known a more perfect role model for our babies, and a man that our baby boy will truly look up to and learn from.

Breaking through that serious reserved shell is the kindest, funniest, adventurous guy I fell hard for.

You deserve everything good and more for what you put out into the world. There’s no one like you bubba 🧡

Notoriously mia recently so here’s my monthly unpack + update sesh 🧡 enjoy 🧡

Can’t wait to share more info from all the changes in our life. So many good things came after hard news and it felt like God just holding my hand and patting the top like a grandpa would do. Always reminders to stay positive and focus on the good. And there was so much good this month 🥰

a rare sighting of me not in my backyard 🖤🥂🌅

let’s rodeoooo 💃🏼🤠🐴🧲🐂

Miss C loved her first Sat night local rodeo + said she’s ready for bull ridin now. We’re holdin her to it obviously

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Fit deets and makeup linked on my LTK 🤎 .ltk

The little things that aren’t so little 🧡🥰🦋🌸

Summer readin, havin a blast 🤍☀️📚🌊📖

Happy national book lovers day!

This summer I have read 15 books and it’s my fave indoor hobby 🫶🏼 as much as I love my kindle I’m missing turning the pages + making lil notes in my physical books butttt it’s saved a ton of $

So far my top 2 this year are:

The Only One Left- Riley Sager
Never Lie - Freida McFadden

Currently I’m reading “The Last Time I Lied” by Riley Sager.

What are your top 2 recs for books? I need more!