Jenn Vermilye

I mean technically it is a Bernese mountain dog… well played… 💙🥰🐾🦴

5 days after an 11 hour surgery, 4 blood transfusions, 3 hours between 2 mg of Dilaudid, and 1 successful yet complication riddled esophagus and stomach repair, with 1 very distended stomach. My body has been through hell these past few years, but I am proud of the fight it has put up, and all it is doing in trying to heal. Hoping to be out of the hospital and out of the woods by day 10!!! 💪

Dad. Your third anniversary in heaven. Not a day goes by i don’t wish you were still here with us. The time has flown by so fast, yet so painfully slow at the same time. I’m convinced you’re the Mets angel in the outfield right now, and I can’t listen to Gary, Keith, Ron, or Howie without crying my eyes out. Life will just never be the same again, and I dream of the days you were still here. I’ll keep it short and sweet. I miss you, I love you, my heart aches for you, and I pray heaven is treating you well. Thank you for watching over us. 💙💙💙 Oh and Dukie asks for you all the time!!!

Funny how the good ones go
Too soon, but the good Lord knows
The reasons why, I guess
Sometimes the greater plan is kinda hard to understand
Right now it don’t make sense
I can’t make it all make sense
So I’m gonna sit right here
On the edge of this pier
Then watch the sunset disappear
And drink a beer
So long my friend, until we meet again
I’ll remember you
And all the times that we used to
Sit right here on the edge of this pier
And watch the sunset disappear
And drink a beer

I want to feel like im close to something real
I want to find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

S**c night 2

Dad. Happy Father’s Day. Sunday was difficult as usual, but spending time with you was much needed and cathartic. It’s still so hard to come to terms with the fact that you are gone. Sometimes it still feels like you are still here. Life has been tough lately, but I know you are up there watching over me, protecting me, and making sure I’ve got this. I don’t know where the time is going, but I wish I could press rewind. I love and miss you old man

Things have not been any easier
It’s hard just keeping it together
When it’s pulling you apart
When all you wanted was tomorrow
You picture albums on the wall
And the good old days and times of sorrow
Yeah, but tomorrow never comes
Oh, tomorrow never comes
No daily briefs, no consultations
With ravens picking at your eyes
No time for polite conversations
The front lines waiting for your lives
But all you wanted was tomorrow
And box your yesterdays away
You forgot your time was borrowed
And it’s just another day
Oh, it’s just another day- Dave Matthews Band

Thank you for the beautiful flowers!!! And happy birthday!!!!

One more random drop from the birthday weekend. It’s been difficult not having my father anymore, or my siblings in my life. It makes birthdays and holidays really lonely I haven’t had a birthday party since I was 16, so I said f**k it. And I had an absolute blast. Thank you to everyone who came, reached out, everything. And if you see if’s someone’s birthday online, it take two seconds to say happy birthday. You never know what that person might be going through, and just how much it might mean to them

Couzzy photo shoot from my birthdayyyyyyyy

I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser. I guess this is 38! Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes!!!!