Doin Fine Beauty By Reba

2 years ago today was the 1st day I got to see and meet so many people of the lives you’ve touched. Some came to say their final goodbyes and see ya again some day. Others to wait out for another day to say just those very things to you.

2 years ago today was the 1st day that several people walked right past me. Not because they didn’t know me; even though some didn’t, but because they had no idea I was the baby of the family, because I’m not that shy little girl they once knew before.

2 years ago today I kept on a brave face and held back all the tears I could and put on some of the fakest smiles I had ever had to make all while telling everyone I spoke to that you loved them and will always be with them! Just like you had asked me to the last time we had ever spoke.

2 years ago tomorrow, Well that’s the day my life really changed forever. That’s the day Gidget gave you her final good bye. And I’m sure you both had your very own conversation of how she’d look after me for you and so on. That’s when I couldn’t hold back the tears anymore when she licked your face and tried to wake you up. My heart still breaks for her!

But for me,
2 years ago tomorrow is the day I closed the casket of my favorite person and had never been the same since.
I still hate that everyone thought I was the person that needed to be farthest away from you during the funeral like I was a nobody. Why just because I was the baby? I’ll never know.
But most of all, I hate how I was pushed to the back of the line to be the last person to say their final goodbyes to you; and then get told to hurry up because everyone is outside waiting and freezing. I never did get to say my final goodbye. I just simply got to say “See ya later.”

So yeah 2 years ago today and tomorrow are the days My soul became as black as my clothes I wore those 2 days. Hate grew a place in my heart and I don’t think it will ever see light again until I see you again some day. 🕊️💔

THIS.✨💯

I did remember how to do this small business thing! 💁🏻‍♀️👩🏻‍💻🤳🏼💋